Posted by Saheli
When Asha posted the theme for May, I got straight to it. I started the post at my blog "Saheli". When I reached half way thru I was very depressed and it was too hard for me to continue. (I lost my Aai 8 yrs ago). I abruptly ended my post and well cried for a long time...
I was never close to her. I never shared anything with her. I don't know why? She wasn't very strict, in fact she was very jolly. But, I never said 'I love you' enough to her. I regret that so much. If only I had another chance... Well, this M-day(actually last week) I have made a promise to myself. I am going to be a friend to my kids. Though I do (try to do) all motherly stuff for them, I am going to be their confidant. I want them to come to me and tell me whatever they want to. They should be comfortable with me. I will tell them how much I love them and always care for them. I will be always there for them. (my tears are not very well trained, they don't know when to stop or start for that matter...)
Yeah! I know I need to take some 'writing skills' class ;)
I am not aiming for perfection in motherhood but, I want to give my 100% to be the best 'mamma' to my kids.
Happy M-day to everyone!
PS: I love you Aai and miss you very much. (I know you are watching over me...)