Sunday, June 10, 2007

My Daddy

This post was written by Trishna of Tina Says

In March , I had written about my Daddy...It was his birthday...He would have been 57 this year....
I thought I would share my post with all of you....I miss him a lot..

We were to go and watch The Namesake over the weekend.... and I hadn't read the book till then... so I made it a point to read it ASAP.... Am glad I did....The book was fabulous.... I couldn't put it down.... I felt criminal..when I would find excuses to leave my son with the maid... just so that I could go and finish reading the book....
There were times when I would just read the words and see the whole story happen in front of my own eyes..... I could see a number of people I knew ..I loved...I missed.... in the pages of that book..... Most of all my Father..... Daddy.....
Its been seven years since we celebrated his birthday with him......he's been gone for almost seven years now.....but even today when I go over to my mum's place... I expect to see him sitting on his chair in the living room watching cricket or chatting with someone or the other.....
I still expect to be asked "Hey! T ... pour me some T..." with a grin on his face... I still expect to see him walking around the dinning table when we eat..straightenning the table mats , forks and spoons..... I still hear him call my brother "minky"....I still see him giving a look of exasperation -looking at my Dida laying out a lunch consisting of 15 different dishes when he had categorically asked her to make just two...I still hear him ask my Thakuma to make "maacher jhol with bori"... I still see him pouring himself a cup of tea at the dining table and stirring in the sugar noisely till all the sugar dissolved ..much to my irritation...I still see him playing with my lil neices and nephews.....showing them the cars that passed by... I still hear him teaching them to stand at attention and call him "commando dadu....." which in turn made my poor mother "commando thakuma" for no fault of her own.....I still see him.... hear him .....and ....feel him....

He would have been 57 on the 23rd of March....I miss him a lot....... As I was reading The Namesake...I missed him all the more..... Jhumpa Lahiri.....took a few chapters out of my life when she wrote that book...... I immediately telephoned my brother and asked him to read the book..... knowing that he would understand what I was feeling.....

Now when I look down at my son....I miss Daddy all the more...He isn't there to play with his grandson....he isn't there to show him how to stand straight... chest out ..stomach in......he isn't there to show him the cars and race with him like he did with my brother....he isn't there to be called 'Dadu'...he isn't there to see his grandson twirl the lil lock of hair on his forehead the same way he used to do........

This year Joy, my son, sent some beautiful flowers to his Dadu on his 57th birthday.....and you aren't here to give him a hug...Daddy...... It's just not fair....

9 comments:

sunita said...

I totally empathise with you...I lost my father nearly thirteen years ago and still go through all the emotions that you've described...my kids never got the opportunity to meet him, he had left for his heavenly abode long before that...I know how the heart wishes that he would turn up somewhere...but then I've got so many fond memories of him that I feel he's near me anyway...

Asha said...

I am so touched Trishna.He sounds like he was great fun!:)
Treasure the memories.Hugs to you.Happy Father's day to him.

Sunita said...

Tina, My dad passed away 2 years back on 23rd March. There is not a single day I don't think about him. I have been thinking of writing about him the past few days but its just too difficult. This post resonates so well with me.

Poppins said...

Beautiful post. I lost my dad way too long back to have too many memories but I do think about how it would have been, had he been around today to play with my baby.
I remember things that he used to say and the silly games he used to play..Hmm I should do a post on that soon.

Sandeepa said...

That was a very touching post Trishna.Hugs to you :)

Shivapriya said...

Very touching Trishna. He is always there with and he will be.. take care and Hugs.

Moppet's Mom said...

He's around you know. Your guardian angel. Yours and Joy's.

Hugs.

Raghu Ram Prasad said...

I wish your daddy..... "many many happy retures of the day" ....good writing

shweta said...

Heart warming post .My dad passed away 3 years ago.Your post reflects the emotions of all of us who have lost parent early in our lives.I have been trying to write up a post on him..but every time I start writing couple of lines..I am in tears.As Asha said..Treasure all the memories.